I don't want to finish that quote. But I don't see how we can do this. I've never loved another person so much as I love Michael. But one of us is going to have to make the biggest sacrifice and that person will end up resenting the other, possibly forever if he or she makes that sacrifice and we still don't make it work ( Read more... )

NOTHING is going the way it's supposed to be going and I don't know how much longer I can take it. I was talking to Courtney earlier today and told her I had a year to find a job because I just deferred my loan for 12 months. She said "You'll be fine, it's a year." I told her that I told myself the same thing LAST December ( Read more... )

I woke up today in a pretty good mood. The weather is perfect. My resume is in full circulation (especially in Colorado). I had a really great weekend with the boys. I actually felt well rested. Victor called last night (after I'd been asleep for two and a half hours) and we had a great conversation. There was no way today could be bad ( Read more... )

I haven't slept in 4 days and counting. It's becoming unbearable. Any suggestions for 8+ hours of uninterrupted, peaceful slumber? I could really use them.

I wrote this piece today, and it was the first conscious effort I've made in a really long time. So, read it and let me know what you honestly think... I think I'm kinda proud of it, perhaps I'll continue and elaborate at some point soon ( Read more... )

Just when everything pulls together it all starts to fall apart. It's a vicious cycle, really. Tonight I realized how useless my existance is in good old Helyar House, as well as in a few peoples lives. Moving out has been a topic of conversation for quite a while... is it time to make it a reality? Where would I go? Who would I live with.... so ( Read more... )

Alright, so it's almost Christmas, and I need some hardcore advice... I have NO idea what to get Nick. I haven't dated anyone during the holidays in two years ( Read more... )

BLaH! Today just got so much more complicated than I was anticipating. Its a good thing I'm skipping 2 of my three classes to catch up. I swear this part of the semester I'm going to do SOO much better than the first part. Now, I know it appears that I may not be genuine in my swearing, specifically since I'm not going to two classes today, but I ( Read more... )

It has been the most terribly, emotionally draining week of my life... Every time I turn around something else is wrong or needs my attention. I am so, sO, SO glad today is Thursday and I only have one class tomorrow... I was thinking about driving out of town but I'm not so sure what I want to do anymore, it all depends on the reason I want to ( Read more... )